Too. Much. Work.

I need a break.

From life.

Please. Just kill me now.

You don’t have to. I just popped some pills.

Panadol.

Damn. There were only two.

Well. At least it will cure my headache.

Now back to work.

So I went to bed at 4 am last night (this morning?) and lay there for hours but couldn’t sleep and now it’s 8 am and I have work training in two hours and then a group assignment to work on right after that and then a research proposal to complete before I go to bed damn this is going to be a long day.

"Things don’t have to last forever as a prerequisite to them being worthwhile."

Thought Catalog

I finished reading The Great Gatsby earlier today and it has left me with a profound sense of incompleteness.

"Gatsby believed in the green light, the orgastic future that year by year recedes before us. It eluded us then, but that’s no matter — to-morrow we will run faster, stretch out our arms farther… And one fine morning —"

 F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

"So we beat on, boats against the current, borne back ceaselessly into the past."

 F. Scott Fitzgerald, The Great Gatsby

"It seemed like someone was always leaving someone, like that’s the way the world worked—people were born and people died, people left and people came. It was like the world was saying you can’t have everything you want at the same time."

Jacqueline Woodson, Lena (via 4mbivalent)

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A moment in time.

And so at 2:19 am on April 14 2013 I sit in my dorm room wearing a jet black shalwar kameez listening to Linkin Park and reading How To Stare At A Brick Wall on Thought Catalog. I should really sleep because I have a class at 8:30 am but before that I need to iron my shirt and jeans for tomorrow. 

It feels kind of nice to be 21 but I shouldn’t have high expectations about the day because I have absolutely no plans plus I have a lot of work to do. I know that you can not possibly physically feel you are 21 and this is just some psychological shit. 

If I receive just one present this time and if it’s a book then I will be very happy. I shall wear my favourite shirt today.

Forever 21

I don’t like happy birthday posts on facebook just everyone saying happy birthday over and over again unless it’s something special like this girl posted a video of Forever Young on my wall which was really nice but I do appreciate twitter mentions and whatsapp messages are nice too as for telephone calls no one does that anymore except my grandma from Pakistan

Oh god I’m feeling so angry right now but then I’m also eating chocolate which is kinda countering the effect and sorry for spewing negativity out here but this is the one place I come and rant away from the real world.

Twenty days later my junior year will be over and I will then be a senior. It’s hard to believe so much has happened in the last three years and how quickly time passes; right now I can not decide whether I want to stay here a little longer or finally get out of this place. I guess that’s what senior year is for.

Some pretty awesome places in the list, Karach at no. 8. What do these people know, they’ve just groped third-world capitals together.